...still coming out as an actor. Really, you?

Still

Re: second part of coming-out-as-actor-really-you, I've sadly not been as resilient as I thought I was.
I didn't really think I was anyway, but I thought I was getting there.

Last Friday was the RSAMD drama openday and I found out that the course I wanted to do there starts in October 2010, not February.
Now, it's only time but I thought I was fixed and was ready to start now.
October is nearly a whole year away, and because I'm only 'well' for short periods, I thought that come then, I might not be in the same condition.
Then, today, I realised that if I'm still thinking that way, and the fact that this week, I've been really flat, I'm not as ready as I thought.

So, as my facebook fortune cookie said; 'when one door closes, many more open.....

.....SL found me a couple of other, shorter courses that start sooner for me to try.
I really want to be an actor, but I've got to be 'together' to be successful. One of the courses she found starts in February, so, as a date in my mind, it gives me a few months to focus. And what's better, it's not the be all and end all if I'm not ready, mentally. Because it's not the big one I was planning on. It a bonus thing. Well, that's if it's a real course that is.
Yes, it is. And it's still in Glasgow, so even better.

Now, this post might need re-writing because I'm not thinking clearly, well, I'm thinking too quickly for my two finger typing, but I'll do it later....

....I'm trying to get better.